Question: for many years now, I’ve been listening to talks and seeking transformation, but it doesn’t seem to have made any difference. Why am I not able to change? I feel as if I never want to listen to anything again.
This is like a heartbroken youngster who was once in love saying he will never marry because of his one bad experience.
Now let’s look at how one of our most revered sages approached his enligthenment. Dattatreya had 24 gurus. A bumblebee, the Sun, Earth, Water, Fire, Wind – they were all of them his teachers. When he looked at a bee, going from one flower to another, he saw thta its very movement enabled cross-pollination. It gathered the best from each flower and created something as beautiful as honey.
How was he able to see this?
He was committed to transformation. If there is such a commitment, then even a drunkard will teach you something. He will show you what not to be. You benefiting from an experience or a teaching depends on your commitment to transformation. If you come with the intense desire for change, then you will experience things with a deep awareness. You will listen and see things through the right lens.
Let me tell you a story.
One day, Shani was sitting under the tree feeling very, very sad. Someone came up to him and asked why he looked so depressed.
He said, “The priests are doing my job.”
“How can the priests do your job?”, asked the person.
“They have converted freedom into bondage, truth into belief and understanding into a dogma. When this is happening, then they are really doing my work.”
Truth is something to be experienced. If you take truth and convert it into a dogma, then it goes out of your field of experience. When this happens, you will face the worst kind of challenges. The statements of the Gita are not to be believed. They are to be experimented and experienced by yourself. Sugar has to be experienced as sweet. Not believed as so. The verses of all enlightened masters are such that they compel you to experience it for yourself, not force you to believe. Lord Krishna is, above all, a state of consciousness. It is what we have to work to be. He was always waves of joy and love. So when you bow down to the great beings that graced us with their presence and lit our paths in the darkness of our ignorance, do so for the consciousness they radiated. From that angle, bow down to them.
If you read any books on self-transformation and growth, particularly the Gita, you should approach them from the space of wanting to experience the truth. From an intense commitment to your own transformation. Then, you will find that life is a great awakening. You will have set the right context for your growth. In such a space, transformation is inevitable.